July 28, 2008


Lately I've been pretty stressed out about a lot of different things. Fr. Bart maybe not marrying us, certain girls in the bridal party not able to pay for their dresses, parents with lack of emotion, swamped at work...I think I could go on and on. This is a problem for me when I try to loose weight. I get into this state of depression...and I can't control it. And when I get depressed...all I want to do is eat, because I swear it makes me feel better.

If you have been reading my blog...2 months ago I was on a mission to loose 5o lbs. And I lost 25. HOWEVER..in the last 2 months I've put back on 10 lbs. And I can totally feel it and SEE it. It totally disgusts me. And I'm really disappointed in myself that I did all that work...for nothing!

So, I am on a NEW mission. I want to loose 35 lbs. Maybe even 40. Not so I will look pretty in my wedding dress...or a new swim suit. But because I want to get healthy...and get fit so I'm physically ready to have a baby shortly after we get married. And I want to live a long life and see our kids grow up. Considering I have to be on close monitoring when I get pregnant because of my Insulin Resistance...I want to make it as easy as possible on me, the baby and the doctors.

Wish me luck!!